I Am 32

Birthdays have never been a big celebration for me. I can be a grumpster like my dad. He usually flees town on his birthday because he hates when people make a big deal.

This year my friends told me to leave my night open. I’m not a big fan of people planning things for me so I gave the usual answer. I’ll do it. You guys can come over.  Birthdays are just like any other day. I don’t like planned activities. It feels like forced fun. I don’t want to inconvenience other people.

These feelings always come when someone wants to do something nice for me. What am I fighting here? I’m turning 32. I decided to change and get out of my shell. I said ok.

I met my 3 besties Jessica, Carla, and Jana. We took a long sunset stroll along the beach and then went to dinner. I have always felt that if you have just ONE person show up in your life, you are lucky. I showed up to the restaurant to be surprised that 17 showed up, with additional video messages from the 4 who couldn’t make it.


As we had dinner (Café Gratitude – my fav restaurant in LA), I looked around the table in slow mo as the sound drowned out, like at the end of a movie when the main character has some kind of epiphany. All the people I know are so FUN, passionate, supportive, and they are here – for me. All the resistance I’ve always had to having my birthday celebrated came back to one fundamental belief. What did I do to deserve this?

I let go, and I get it.

The answer is everything.

This Post Has 2 Comments

  1. Lydia

    That is so awesome to have so many incredible people in your life!
    You get what you “want”.

    Gotta learn to let go…! Thanks for the inspiration and, again, happy belated birfday!

  2. Brenda

    Awe man. I shouldve thought of makin a video message!! But I’m so glad you felt the love everyone has for you and received it. Wish I could’ve been there to celebrate with you but I’m grateful for the night we had prior to. Love your beautiful soul. Cheers to many more years of You. <3

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